It has been a long time since I wrote this blog . I have been busy with school and internship . Tomorrow is actually my last day at Smit Singapore . Eveything has been great but one thing that spoilt my day was the meaness of one of my colleague . Bloody ang moh . Guess what he did ? I had to pass some sweets down . Rita was there and that darn ang moh was behind her . Between the 2 , of course I chose the less evil of the 2 . I asked that ang moh politely to pass down the sweets and he refused !!!! What crap ! After a few minutes of la la zhe zhe , someone was nice enough to help me pass it down . I was so furious and upset . I felt like I was being humilated since the whole 2nd half of the bus was like looking on at the drama . Can you imagine what others would think ? This girl is so darn cheap , trying to seek the attention of an ang moh . I was so pissed I complained to his friend

Guess what , that darn ang moh's friend told me he did not mean it and only meant it as a joke. A joke ?? you kidding me ? I can swallow that explanation if he did refuse to help me once or twice . but refusing 3 to 4 times . Even if you meant it as a joke , pls you have been here for what ? A year? Dont tell me you dont understand the culture here . No matter how westernised an Asian is , he is still brought up the Asian way , by doing what he did , he has effectively humilated me ! I am so pissed off . If he doesnt give me a reasonable explanation and an apology personally , I am going to F him upside down and make sure that he doesn't get to see Smit Rotterdam ! I am still very pissed .

AM selling a couple of stuff to clear my cupboards for new designs that I am making . All are brand new and in good condition.





Unique Shell Necklace @ $35





Ceramic and roses @ $12

Sometimes I wonder if it would be possible for me to defy the laws of society and just do something wild , something that I really love . I do not know what I want . But what I carve is power and money . I want to be powerful . I want to have influence and I want money . Lots of money to throw at those who deem me useless . Thats what I want . I want to throw money at them . To rub it in their faces . I want to be able to say , I have the cash , I have the power so what if you thought I was not good for you . I am now better , infact I am now too good for you . Buzz off . money money money . It makes the world go round . Power Power power , it makes a person goes heady with glee . And on top of that , when you think of power and money , remember my name and what I have become . Also remember and regret till your heart shatters the way you treated me . Thats what I want . money and power

It's gonna be christmas tomorrow ! am gonna go to church XD hahahaha Unfortunately for me , while others are on partying the night away , I am gonna greet the arrival of xmas with my homework . sigh .. sigh ...

damn it damn it damn it !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate all these quarrels that the elders keep having . WHy cant they stop attacking each other verbally ?????? I dont care if they do it all the time but cant they at least stop when I was doing my psychometric test ? See , now I cant even finish the test !!! Damn IT !!! they ruined my chances of getting into credit suisse !Sometimes I wish they would just shut up . Pls , even people who get hanged also need a breather , can't they stop arguing for an hour or so ? Gosh , the next time i do a psychometric test , i must make sure that both of them are MIA from the house . It's so irritating !! Damn it !!

I am so so so upset . That aunty from blk 440 stole my things again . And this isnt the 1st time la ! SHe stole my undies , my flower pot , my basin of clothes, my shirts and now she come and steal my notes !!!! WTH la . I was so so mad that I gave a call to the police . They came , took my statment and left . I was so so mad . I told my mom ,she steal 1 time , I report 1 time . Damn bloody angry la . I needed the notes desperately to revise for 2nd year . STUPID STUPID AUNTY !!!!! now I have to get my notes from the other guys . What a mess ! argh ! tupid aunty . Dont let me see her , if not i 'kill' her . WTH .;(

I never knew what I would get when my results came out . Firstly , I was convinced utterly that I would have to repeat my year again since I would have failed economics. Apparantly it was better than expected . The only thing would be that I failed my maths 2 and stats 2 . It was rather disappointing because I never expected to fail those subjects , most particularly stats . I mean i was rather good in stats . How could I fail it ? It seems that I have to repeat my failed subjects . The upside is that I can improve my marks to a upper second . but the downside is that I have to discipline myself and pay a few hundred bucks ( which i most assuredly cannot afford) in the process. I would say that that is a really expensive lesson . But what can I do ? At that time , I really regretted allowing myself to fool around during the school year . I should have concentrated more on studies and less on tuition snd play . Gosh ....now the only thing I can do is just to take 1 step at a time . I am actually determined to prove myself with the completetion of my course . By graduating with 1st class or 2nd upper , I am actually proving to myself and most importantly the world that I am capable of doing anything if I set my mind to it ....only by doing that will my bro not look down on me , will my relatives see me as less than what I am actually am .This is the way of the world . Proving oneself to the audience . I am the actor . I set the scenes yet I have to cater to the taste of the audience . How laughable .