Hawk Roosting

I sit in the top of the wood, my eyes closed.
Inaction, no falsifying dream
Between my hooked head and hooked feet:
Or in sleep rehearse perfect kills and eat.
The convenience of the high trees!
The air's buoyancy and the sun's ray
Are of advantage to me;
And the earth's face upward for my inspection.
My feet are locked upon the rough bark.
It took the whole of Creation
To produce my foot, my each feather:
Now I hold Creation in my foot
Or fly up, and revolve it all slowly -
I kill where I please because it is all mine.
There is no sophistry in my body:
My manners are tearing off heads -
The allotment of death.
For the one path of my flight is direct
Through the bones of the living.
No arguments assert my right:
The sun is behind me.
Nothing has changed since I began.
My eye has permitted no change.
I am going to keep things like this.
-- Ted Hughes

It's over!!!The production is over.... yesterday was our last performance.It was really sad . Everyone was like crying and smudging their eyeliner ,of course. sigh..... the whole production was fun in that it really helped me gained a whole new perspective of theatre and myself. It's at this production that I get to make friends, shed that mask of mine and truly be myself. Now it's over , i will miss all these great people who supported me. It was like a great big family and now... we are all going different ways... sigh....I am gonna miss all of them....Anyway, guess what happened yesterday morning? I fainted at the MRT station! God .....it was so embarressing. I dunno how it happened . I just walked out of the train , then all of a sudden , it was flashes of light and bingo , darkness.... wow....and the next thing ... people were like asking me how i felt and all.... And guys , if you did helped a gal who fainted at City Hall MRT . Thanks a lot . I dunno what would have happened if you hadn't been there. Most likely , i wouldn't be able to finish this production. Thanks . so...yupz an exciting day all gone like that and it's back to school and homework tomorrow. No more diva attenrion, no more flowers , no more encore.... reality is HERE!!!

I don't understand why i keep bumping into these people you know the kind that go all out to make use of you and all. Just had a fight with my 'supposed ' good friend. And can you believe it's all because of a guy! No.. it's ain't some catfight about 2 gals fighting over a guy. you just won't understand . It's complicated!!! ok...here goes, this guy that my friend likes ' oh so much' approaches me on msn and started talking to me. I spoke to him and he just all a sudden started swearing at me in tamil.... god.....of course i 'screamed' at him.... I am positively mad. guess what hpened later? he started asking after my friend, who according to him is my boyfriend. I was so confused .....didn't know what he was talking about until like after a while. He was talking about Aman.....GOD!!! In the 1st place, i don't have a boyfriend and even if i do....it wouldn't be him..... gosh * rolls eyes* * shakes head*. the following day, i screamed at her for telling the guy such crap....which is so obviously untrue . Imagine what will happen if aman were to find out? our friendship would be affected seriously....And guess what she said? that i was petty, childish and all the unappealing things . And she did that behind my back!!!! As if that wasn't enough!!! She laughed at what the insults the guy typed but screamed at me when i insult him!!!! GOD..... i m mad ... she even went so far as to potray herself as the victim and me? the villian!!! HELLO GUYS!!!! THE VICTIM IS HERE!!!!! sigh......it's really irritating ...but i guess i will get over it soon enough...ha ha ..