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Funny thing ...but I miss alex....

After speaking to alex just now , my hope in being able to call for change in the political system is renewed. Seems that alex is into politics too! haha.. well..I actually thought that maybe it might be next to impossible to change the mindset of the people and call for change in the party ..but well..after speaking to alex ..seems like both of us are reaching for the same goal ! So i am glad to know that there's some sort of partner with me . My hope in being able to achieve this is renewed .

Your Fireworks Say You're Original

You are chaotic, inspired, and very creative. You're so creative, people don't really recognize your creativity. What's expressive for you sometimes looks like a mess. But you don't really care... you enjoy making your messes!

Recently , I came across this guy from the US on Tagged. Interesting profile . He claims that his parents were divorced and his dad who had custody of him treated him badly . Apparently , he had been scarred by his childhood. The interesting thing was that I felt I could relate to him on those feelings ..partly because of the recent or not so recent incident that I went through . Spoke to this guy but found him rather interesting in that he doesn't seem to trust people ..weird...but never mind...that puzzle can be solved another time . Back to read the 'Barings scandal'....

Have been busy ... trying to prepare for exams. I felt so good after that 1 tearful chat with shan...thanks a lot shan . Havent been able to get up to it but hopefully I will get around to really revise for the exams. =) Driving test is on 3/3/09 . wish me luck . I have finally completed my on the road training .. next week , I am going to learn the crank course in the circuit and all . Yesterday , I tried an impromptu parallel parking with my instructor in the car . I managed to prak of course . And I was so proud of myself. haha ... hopefully I will get my license in March =)

I am sitting here in the living room trying my best to finish up my PBF assignment . In the background , my parents are quarreling . My bro's went abroad , my sis is in camp so there's only me ..sigh.. this has been going on once every few days since 14th May , Mother's Day . Since the day we discovered that my dad had a relationship with the maid . sigh . I knew that ever since I decided to go to SIM , my university studies would never be easy . But I never knew that it would be this difficult . Add on the study - work commitment that I have , the other commitments I have , I have my parents screaming and shouting at each other every few days . I never knew that it would be this difficult . ever since we found out that my dad had commited adultery , I just can't focus on my studies . I know I have to study but I just can't I just can't . There are times in which i forced myself to sit down and study and yet ..I just can't study . God help me, but I just can't study . And now..exams are coming ..I am just so so afraid . And I just don't know ...If it weren't for some friends around me , I fear I would have gone mad. I am half mad as it is . Everytime they quarrel , I would sometimes wonder if maybe I am the cause of all the pain shown on my mom's face . My mom said that she never blamed me for finding out the relationship my dad had with the maid ..but there are times when the thought drifts unbidden into my mind that they as in my parents and my siblings hate me for what i have done . And the hate my parents feel for me is more than what my siblings feel for me .my mom because of the pain and hurt that she had to face . my dad because he's faced with the accusations my mom threw at him and the fact that his relationship has been broken up ...I don't know what to think anymore , I just don't know ..how to force myself to focus on my studies....