I am in a fix. sigh ..should I let him go or continue being his friend ? He is really a man of few words . No matter how I try to talk to him , he either replies or don't . I feel as if I am some cop interrogating a crimminal . But , out of all the guys I know, he is the only one that fits the astrologer's description of my future hubby . Although , I am supposed to meet him later in my life (for work purposes i guess) and start dating and get wed . The description that he gave is so uncanny . It fits him totally . I can't imagine that there's another guy in the whole wide world with the same description . The astrologer said that he or rather my future hubby would be big sized , loves to eat , of certain wealth and status and is from the USA . As to the race and age , he doesn't know . Yet , T is one person who seems to fit all of the qualities that he had listed . He's big sized (broad shoulders , broad chest) , he loves to cook and eat and he's an accounts manager for a certain reputable company(that means he's of certain wealth and stature), and best thing is he's from the USA. Considering my nature of study , the finance industry is rather small so it's with 70% probability that I would meet him . Most companies work with the company he's working for . that's the thing. And the thing is that he somehow makes me feel more secure and I rather like him .but he is a very private person due to the things that he went through and all . sigh ...it's rather difficult talking to him . he's like a bloody clam . u ask a question , he likes it , he answer u else he doesn't .haiz...so the question is to forget about him or to keep perservering ? I am truly in a fix . And best thing , my mum doesn't know about this and she's already shooting the ceiling since she thinks i am talking to men on the internet when technically the only guys i spoke to were Troy , Alex and Clezio. If she knows about Troy , she will definately shoot to the sun and back .XC

yesterday night , my bro brought his ex and her parents to our house . And guess what time they came to 'visit' us ? At 11pm ! This is preposterous ! Anyway, I suspect that my stupid fool of a bro wanted to get back with her so they came to 'clear' up the misunderstandings(or not) between the girl and our family. Can you believe their guts ? I definately can't . hah. And the best thing was that they came without telling us ! How rude ! Anyways , the dad was a rather nice person but the mom ...ewww how vulgar ! she wore 'gold' bangles up to the elbow and the way she talked ...like her daughter is the one who is innocent of all wrongdoings ..eww..she irritate the hell out of me . I see her already I want to slap her upside down ! And the girl , guess what she told my dad? ' I can't help it that it's our generation gap so it's alright if i call jacob a bastard !' Can you believe that ? OMG ! Anyways i am off to bed ....i hope they dont come back again ! XD btw , I spent the night talking to the goldfish . And he was so so cute . hahaha XD thats a story for another day XD

Guess what , I haven't spoke to clezio for a few days and i sorta miss him and his ways .weird huh? But the weirder thing was that I just spoke to Troy a couple minutes back and even though we didn't exactly speak much , I found that somehow , even though I had sort of gone on with my life , I had missed him . Now the crunch is , who do I like better? Troy or clezio ? I like Troy because he is mature , steady and he makes me feel safe ...erm safe? I dunno it's that feeling inside of me . But I like Clezio because he makes me laugh , he keeps me entertained and he talks loads of crap and he is cute in a way ...both are like night and day . you could say that clezio is the fair cute guy that likes to laugh and Troy is the fair handsome brooder. Who do I choose ? I love both guys ! But which one is my special one ? Argh..

I find I rather like clezio . He is so different from the rest of the other guys ..but hehe ... the thing is that I do not know if he likes me . You know if I suddenly blurt out that I like him and he doesn't treat me as anything more than a friend , I will feel so mortified ! sigh... I will settle this on the 16th after my exams ...for now , it is jia you jis you !