been a really long time since i last blog...haha... ok...here's a summary of my prelim 2 results. I passed GP and my international history. Failed maths and almost passed physics... gonna get back my economics and southeast asia results this week. Hope I don't fail my SEA paper else someone's gonna laugh at me... for failing the easier paper. Oh Well... talking about him .... he borrowed my jacket on friday... I know you said that I could have refused to lent him my jacket but I can't very well let him freeze in the hall for like the whole day ... he has 2 papers you see. what's more, he was sick the day before and was freezing during his GP paper.. can't make him fall sick again... oh well... so i waited for my jacket after school and the libary was argh...cold. Didn't really study much ... only managed to finish my 2006 maths paper... sigh... think i took like 2 - 3 hours to do that? i was so tired after doing my paper that i sorta not do anything for the next hour or so... After that, when he finished his paper... finally! I was so sleepy waiting for him! went off with him...amazing....that guy had the guts to tell the teacher that he was not going to attempt the maths paper and spent the examination writing a letter to his grand mother! Seems like the scums of innova has worked their influence on him... hah. And who was the one who said that i should be studying and not slacking.... oh well... that was uncalled for. I recognise that that was for my own good.It's just that seriously I can't believe that he would ever do that...haha...anyway... met 2 girls on the way out of school...guess they were his classmates. One of the gals apparently was from public speaking. Amazing...can't seem to remember her...haha.. the other i have no idea...haha ...strangely, i can't remember them even though i have met them. haha. Oh well... anyway.. the other girl was weird. She claimed that she spoke french. Interesting... but her tone seems to imply that she has the upper hand or something...don't really know how to describe that implication... haha..but somehow, it prompted her friend , the girl from public speaking to recite the alphabet , Detusch style. It was quite laughable....but oh well.. I was tempted to ask the 'french' girl , ca va bien? just to see if she really understands french...haha...but of course i didn't. good manners dictate that it be so. I wonder what her reaction would be if she knew that i could speak 6 languages. french, german, english, chinese, cantonese and korean. that would be interesting. And it would be far more interesting if she knows that i lost touch with three of the languages, french being one.. haha... languages that i learnt at the age of six . All lost due to lack of practice . haha.. oh well.. i sorta dislike the 'french ' girl . I mean it's like so obvious that she was being a cling wrap.haha.. reminds me of a country bumpkin who has never seen a caucasian before.. haha.. oh well...it can't be helped . I was like that when i was 11 . haha. And I guess I would have been like that if I had not been given an education at an elite school where caucasians were practically common sight in the school..haha... but still...it's somewhat irritating to see her acting like an SPG. And what one does , the other follows. sigh... I swear by the time he leaves the school, his head would have swelled to the verge of almost popping! haha. Oh well...we walked with them to the mrt station , then the two of us left for cold storage to get some stuff..the weird thing was that the last time i sorta dragged him to Causeway point, he was complaining ... so it was quite surprising that he agreed readily to acompany me to the supermarket. but oh well.. we are on better terms now than then . haha. seriously sometimes ... he is so cute that i really feel like telling him Ich lieben sie ...haha...but oh well... i don't love him. i love him as a friend. He's my brother... And it's impossible... I can't love him for one cause an long distance relationship is impossible..my parents will kill me... and i should be focusing on my studies now... yea...i don't love him... i can't... Ich liben herr. Herr ist mein kind bruder und bester freund. Ich lieben mein bester freund... I love him. He ist my kid brother and best friend. I love my best friend. yes... that explains my feelings for him. or does it? Blast it! I can't love him! And that's final! or not?

sigh... it has been like dunno how many days since exams. Just got back my physics paper and general paper... sigh... for general paper, I got the same marks as prelim 1 : 50 and that's because of moderation. In actual fact , my language had deterioated. As for physics , I almost passed. So that's an achievement I guessed. Hopefully , this progress continues. haha. But then again, I feel really blue now. It's not just because of general paper , it's also because of shan .... maybe ... it's not sadness but rather anger... sigh... I have no idea what's got into her but she seems jealous of the relationship than I have with hema and alex... sigh.... oh well... anyway... the story was that she played a prank on me by filling up some prank stuff which i sent to her. She did it under alex's name and since the god damn thing didn't get returned to me with an email address attached to it... i got taken in and thought that my best friend liked me. I know it was my fault in the first place cos I shouldn't have sent that prank so I accepted the fact that there's a teeny weeny chance that someone would play a prank back on me. So when she did and I found out after much worrying... I was quite upset but I didn't utter a word because I know that I shouldn't have done it... And yet... today , she told alex about the prank and my reaction like it was me that pranked myself. And she dared to come tell me that! Argh! What I am mad at is that my good friend would go so far as to humilate me by telling my best friend something that she has done and make it sound like I did it myself cos I was infatuated with him!! Oh what CRAP!! She even goes so far as to treat me the manner a master would treat his dogs . ordering. I mean she oversteps her boundaries as a friend. I could accept a little pranking or a little rudeness... BUT that's too much! I can't stand it!! I am not her dog or anything! ... ARGH!! okie...now that the ranting is over... here's comes the solution.... The mess is done... I have no choice but to pick up the peices of my life that she has shattered. The solution to this mess? Gotta think on it....

Argh!!! I am sick again! This is like the second time that I am sick during or near the exams.... Sigh.... Anyway, have been studying in schoolfor the past few days....hahah * cough* *cough* ... sigh... I did a lot of stuff yesterday...but today...sigh...I was unable to do that much...sigh.... I guess it could be because I was too tired.. if only my big brother was there to push me.... sigh....I really miss his'default nagging'..you know like what i have been doing during the weekends and yah... if i have been slacking...he will start nagging... I swear during the time we have known each other,he takes care of me more than me taking care of him. And to think that I am older than him. Talk about maturity... he's more mature....sigh....oh well...I just so so miss him.... haha... anyway... gotta go take some medcine and sleep... Still have to go to school tomorrow.I have to work harder tomorrow .There's 54 days left to A levels. And without my big brother's nagging, I have to work even harder... Nites...

today was teacher's day. This year , i had to get to school ultra early and all because I thought that the J2s of the drama club should give chitra a card to thank her for all she did. Oh well... I did my best for the card. My artistic skills ain't that good u know...I hope Chitra likes it . But oh well...so anyway, this morning dad gave me a lift to the bus stop cos I wanted to take the bus instead of the train... haha.. I wanted to sleep u see. Sigh... And guess who I saw on the bus? Alex. I can't seem to escape the guy man. although he's only j1 , this bro of mine acts like my older brother and bosses me around. well...anyway... despite the diff in timetable, i always see him daily... u see the j2 and j1s hardly meet each other cos of the diff in timetables. But oh well...we didn't talk much. both of us were so tired.... we slept on the bus. And in diff seats...don't think otherwise!!!He's my bro!!!! I know that many believ that we have something going but that's just so totally crap. Just because a guy and a gal are close to each other does not mean that they are in love. you know there's something called friendship love you know. It's kinda irritating , having to watch my attiude and behaviour around 'blacklisted 'guys you know , like Alex and Aman. Like hello??? We are friends ok? Anyway, back to the subject.. well... school.. as usual, we had ACES day and then teacher's day celebration. After that , went out with tracie and gang for neo prints cos Tracie's leaving for the Uk ...oh well...I am so gonna miss her...but oh well... Argh! unfortunately, I had to rush back to school for lessons... ARGH... I just finished planning for my hist essay . Gonna go to bed soon cos I feel so tired. The neoprint pics are so so cute. haha. I look cute too... haha self praise. Oh well.... the pics above are the ones I took today... I took another one with peg and gang but oh well... that can wait another day... haha... for now, it's bedtime...