What Your Love of Peanut Butter Cups Says About You

You are hedonistic... sometimes to the point of being greedy. You love to eat, and there's no chance you're sharing your candy! While you may be greedy, it's with good reason. You have great taste. The things you love are worth loving, and it's no wonder you crave them.

What Your Love of Peanut Butter Cups Says About You

You are hedonistic... sometimes to the point of being greedy. You love to eat, and there's no chance you're sharing your candy! While you may be greedy, it's with good reason. You have great taste. The things you love are worth loving, and it's no wonder you crave them.

Shit oh shit... I have no idea why . I thought I have gotten over him or what but it seems that I haven't Somehow or other, these past few days , I have been missing him . Jerk. All guys are jerks . Why does this have to happen to me at a time when I am having a break from tuition and can concentrate on my studies. haiz...sometimes I just simply hate myself for thinking of him . I mean he obviously has forgotten about me and stuff. So why am I still thinking of him ? It's stupid...Anyway, went for driving lesson on Friday and found it was rather fun! I could turn around the bend after a couple of rounds round the circuit. And I was so proud of myself!! haha. Another thing I was proud of and not so proud of myself was that on Thursday , I got back my Statistic test paper. I was so happy cos I scored full marks and it has been a long while since I scored full marks for anything . However, I am not so proud of myself because the first thing that I did was think of what he would say to this and the worst thing was that I even smsed him. Stupid stupid me! Sometimes, I am smart , sometumes i am not and sometimes , I am too smart for my own good. Haiz..but then again, he seems to be avoiding me. stupid.. all guys are jerks . Cant we even be friends? Dont let me see him else I will slap him upside down!! Idiot! I didnt even say that I like you, why the heck are u avoiding me?stupid. Idiot.:( Better not let me see you...Pooh...If you wanna talk to me , you better apologise! but it seems useless..even if he doesnt apologise , i dont seem to mind..haiz..

OMG !! OMG!! Guess what , I accidentally chanced upon a testimonial that a friend , W wrote to his ex girlfriend and oh my gosh! It was so mushy that I just couldn't believe that it was him! I mean he's the kind that like so shy , so serious you just don't expect that he's the kind of person to you know say this kind of mushy stuff and even on friendster... wow...I never knew that he could be so daring as to say this kind of thing + eyes open+ +mouth drop+. I guess the phrase 'never judge a book by its cover ' is true in this aspect. I never expected a person like W who is so calm ,stable , boring etc. to be so passionate. I mean I just dont expect it of him. + shake head+ If I want to be bad , I would say he's stupid to make himself so vulnerable ,opening himself up to jeers and taunts and teasing that are sure to come .Also he's letting the girl hurt him should she wish to break up with him. maybe that's why he seems so shaken from the relationship with his ex girlfriend. Just dont wanna talk about it because it affected him really badly that kinda of thing. hmmm...but if i am nice, i would say he's a devoted lover.And I would love to have such a guy as my bf. In fact , I envy his ex for having him as a bf once. But oh well, you know , the only thing I can do is hope that this kind of guy would appear for me one day ..haha.. but there's one downside to having this kinda guy as a bf . That is breaking up is never an easy thing. So if I ever get this kinda guy as my bf , he had better be my last bf else I will be in big trouble.Haha.. I still cant believe what I saw. Just got to get used to this new aspect of my friend

Went down to the law firm today with mom to get the deed of separation (DOS). When I saw the DOS , I realised how powerful this document is. 1 word from either party and this DOS is activated. Somehow , this DOS brought the old fears nagging back to me.If I didnt say anything , maybe it wouldnt come to this , i mean after all : ignorance is bliss. maybe , if i had controlled my impulse, maybe if i had not been so stupid and opened my mouth maybe.. maybe maybe maybe...and somehow the emotional turmoil within me just washed over me and I feel my heart ache at what may or maynot happen . The future is so fragile. No one knows what's gonna happen and i feel that its all the more so for me. If the DOS is activated , then what will happen? I dunno I am for once helpless and lost in this storm . Wicky once said that I am too smart for my own good. It was meant as a joke to counter my self-praise but I think maybe that remark was right for once. I am too smart for my own good. Seriously, so smart until an action I thought was good turned out to have such disastrous consequences. Life is so weird huh? 1 press to a button and my life turns upside down . 1 word and my life is shattered to pieces. I am too smart . A small action with a big impact . Usually , the smallest actions have the greatest impact . hah.Sometimes , I wonder if maybe all these people were right. I was the hand that caused things to come to such a pass . I was just too smart for my own good . I dunno. Just seeing this DOS brings all the uncertainities and fears back. And the thought of it makes me feel helpless. What to do ? What to do? I dont want to go through that pain and emotional stress that I experienced at the start of the year. I just dont know what to do . It's like a wave of pain and emotional turmoil thats attempts to pull me into that whirlpool where everything becomes nothing and all emotions felt are misery and pain and just pain . I dunno . I want to cry but I cant...I wait for the time when judgment day come and the uncertainity and fear will turn into pain , fears and numbness. I know it will come . I just dont know when. I just dont know how painful it will be.Its like a timebomb ticking except i will not know how big the impact the explosion will be. Numbness. Let numbness wash over me or better still when the day comes, let me sleep and never wake up.

I realise how fragile human relationships can be when I spoke to my gal's mom yesterday. She has been separated from her husband for 3 years , has 2 kids , 1 aged 11 and another aged 5 . Husband lives with them despite the separation. The reason for their separation was because of china women. the husband apparantly who is a 1st class honours graduate from NUS Science faculty has been fooling around with China women and has even gotten 1 of them pregnant. The wife who has as you know now discovered all his affairs went into rage and panic. She knows that the husband is leaving her but because she hasnt had sufficient education , she is afraid of life after divorce so like most wives in s'pore would do , for the sake of the kids , she tries to hold the family together . At the same time, she tries and discover an alternative way out should divorce occurs. She wants custody of the kids as she cant trust the china woman with the kids .When she spoke to me, I could tell that she was on the edge of a mental breakdown , very stressed emotionally and mentally. Because of the relationship between the parents , the kids are also somewhat affected. My gal , she feels like she has been deprived of family love, She is also somewhat distracted because of thoughts that her family doesnt love her. Her sister somehow senses that and seeks attention from everyone. This action seems to be one in which she tries to make herself seen and be valuable so that her parents will want her. This made me compare this situation to a similar situation that happened in my family . The relationship between humans is so fragile. Just one look from a pretty woman and a man can forsake his family and kids . You just never know when yur boyfriend is leaving you for another woman or when your husband is gonna forsake the family for another lady.1 moment you are friends or lovers or even both and another moment , maybe a few months or years down the road , you are enemies . Whats even worse is that once a relationship is destroyed , it is not the 2 main party thats injured emotionally , the kids and the people around them feel the emotional hurt too.There's so many consequences . It can just puts one off relationships but as humans in this world , to survive , we have to depend on one another and this means that we have to have relationship , platonic or otherwise to do so . We cannot avoid these consequences. The only thing we can do is just wait for them to happen and try to solve the problems that arise from such situations. In the meantime , while we wait for this 'timebomb' to explode , we can only cherish the people around us and the time we spend with them because we never know which one of them would leave us or even worse , love us and leave us.