I never knew what I would get when my results came out . Firstly , I was convinced utterly that I would have to repeat my year again since I would have failed economics. Apparantly it was better than expected . The only thing would be that I failed my maths 2 and stats 2 . It was rather disappointing because I never expected to fail those subjects , most particularly stats . I mean i was rather good in stats . How could I fail it ? It seems that I have to repeat my failed subjects . The upside is that I can improve my marks to a upper second . but the downside is that I have to discipline myself and pay a few hundred bucks ( which i most assuredly cannot afford) in the process. I would say that that is a really expensive lesson . But what can I do ? At that time , I really regretted allowing myself to fool around during the school year . I should have concentrated more on studies and less on tuition snd play . Gosh ....now the only thing I can do is just to take 1 step at a time . I am actually determined to prove myself with the completetion of my course . By graduating with 1st class or 2nd upper , I am actually proving to myself and most importantly the world that I am capable of doing anything if I set my mind to it ....only by doing that will my bro not look down on me , will my relatives see me as less than what I am actually am .This is the way of the world . Proving oneself to the audience . I am the actor . I set the scenes yet I have to cater to the taste of the audience . How laughable .