it seems funny you know. I was listening to enrique's insominac and I came by his 'do you know' and ' little girl' song and somehow i think of alex. yea. it seems weird I am now in a relationship with troy and i cant seem to forget another guy . I keep thinking of alex . it's like everytime troy says something , I just keep thinking if it was alex , he would have said this or that . I am actually rather confused . When i speak to alex , i feel happier than when i speak to troy but as you know , my mum will definately flip if she hears that i like alex since he's 1 year younger.. argh.it's not as if we started off in a relationship but yea...I like all the other guys . I have something special for someof them but troy is the one that i feel really special towards. I just feel like i want to just kiss away his hurts and protect him from the world but if you talk about happiness , I feel happier with alex than troy . maybe I am not giving troy the time he deserves since the time i spent with alex is longer than with troy . I really dont know. it's like there are so many guys in my heart and troy is the one who i like. but alex is still the 1st guy in my heart. maybe i should just break up with him but then again maybe i should give him an opportunity to win my heart. i guess that's what come out of associating yourself with too many guys , stupid gal!