I feel really uneasy around gerald. The guy's weird . he likes Tracie and yet ... he acts as if I am his girlfriend. That's so er...not right. Anyway, couple days ago... left the school at 820pm and bingo the damn gates were locked!what's the point of putting a sign out there saying that the gates will be locked at 9pm when they locked it at 8pm. Stupid stupid. And yes , you guessed right. We had to climb out of the gate again. This time , I didn't get hurt . That was because I was too scared of the height. Argh!Anyway, I gave gerald the reply to the question he asked me a few days before in one of those farewell cards I wrote every body. Argh! . well.. anyway,back to the topic. I feel rather uneasy around that guy. Seriously! I have no idea what the heck he's thinking. He likes Tracie , yet he treats me like I am his girlfriend.How do I know that? he told me. yeah. Yesterday night , I was quizzing him about him and Tracie cos shan was asking me about it... and he refused to give me a definate answer. Oh well...he asked me about the qns and yah obviously , i refused to answer. What do u expect a gal to do ? shout it out loud that the reply i gave was what he meant to me? It's godamn embaressing man! Argh! Anyway, he asked me about alex and I and I was like huh? I gave him back the same vague answer by throwing his questions at him. HAH! Eventually , i got my answer through my forte. Drama. All I did was be frivolous and declare that he likes me. Then , I teased him about it ! Then, I told him the ans he wanted to know. What I was replying to. HAH. And bingo! The ans came. And then again, hah. It might not be true. Since I have been tricked so many times by some people. Sigh... sometimes, I wonder if I am just stupid or am i just naive ? I keep getting tricked by people! Argh! Anyway, That answer, whether it's the truth or not will just have to suffice. I have something to tell shan liao! Haha. Argh... I am such a great gossip! haha... Anyway, now that I know that that is true, I had better stay away from the guy. 1, I ain't gonna lose a friend over 1 stupid guy. 2, I am saving myself for my first love. HAHA... if he wasn't a friend... I would say that he's a jerk. one stupid jerk! nope...worse than that , a bastardi! how can a guy be in love with a gal and yet can have the conscience to try and fool around with her friend? such a jerk! Thank god after tomorrow, i won't be seeing him ... stupid stupid me. To think that i was so foolish to think that the guy was interested. HAH! At least I had the brains to realise it and I was lucky to not become some foolish chick who would have gotten cheated. hah! Anyway, 1 day more, and I won't see him..... thank god. no one must ever know that JAC , the ice queen was so vulnerable as to almost fall for a jerk. no one must know that jac who is jovial in all aspects is actually a sensitive little gal who is most vulnerable whenit comes to emotions and relationships. That is what no one must know...Je n'aime personne. les amours No. un de reine de glace le droit n'est pas venus. Kay has not come. that is a fact. what i got is just a jerk. Anyway... gotta put it at the back of my mind. A levels are coming....gotta work hard. 3 As and 2 Cs are my goals! not a stupid jerk who seeks to cheat his gal! Liebe ist nichts aber eine Phantasie, die ist, was alle wissen müssen.HAH. it's only for silly romantics like me who think it otherwise. HAH!