Oh well...why does it not hurts? And I thought someone said that loving someone is equal to killing oneself when that person is attached or going to be. I guess a crush is considered a someone...? Now , if that's true , why am I not moved? why is my heart not feeling that excruiating pain? Oh well...I thought Aman (my first crush in college)and Shan together and I don't feel anything... Now that's weird!!! Next up, Shan mentioned that Gerald and Tracie are dating... and weird! I don't feel a thing! Where's that supposed burn of jealousy that's supposed to engulf me ? Where's that supposed need to claim someone gone to? now , someone might say something about Alex. Oh well... true , I did feel a need to exert my stand with Alex , but that's because I felt that our friendship was too precious to be torn apart by someone. But now , the thought , the idea even the reality of seeing the girls cling onto him is so so hilarious. It's over! People , It's over! I did think of them as potential dates but never as anything more than a friend...Aman, Gerald , Alex and all of the other ' supposed ' crushes ... they are all just friend to me... haha.. or is it... I have never seen them as more than friends in the first place? or simply put, do I love them at all? It's love but a friendship kinda love.Cheers to the all flowers but roses. Hah. Anyway, my physics paper was terrible!! I spent so much time studying and I still fail. Felt really disappointed. But oh well.... Have no idea what mischief the gods are brewing but I seem to keep bumping into Gerald today. Before school starts, he was on the same train , I guess. So walked to school with him. Then at lunch today when I was browsing through Tracie's notes . Weird thing was that Alex came , he sat down at our table and chatted with us. And Hui Min was at the next table. Talk about being good friends huh? Anyway, he borrowed my GC and later asked me to help with some application for some internship. Interesting... does that mean he will be here till after my A levels ? That would be so great ! haha. oh well... look like I had better buck up . results are bad... so that means no time for guys! Haha. So just one question why is it that everyone but me is getting attached ? I get on famously with everyone ...do I? So what's with the singlehood when everyone around me is attached or practically attached? Interesting isn't it? Solve it and I might thank you. HAH