Sigh.....I feel so tired... Have been sleeping late for the past two weeks... reason being, work. work , work, work.....Just Thursday, I had to stay up till 3 to do a crap essay and have the teacher extend it to tuesday. Sigh... The Gods are never fair!!! Sigh.... Just yesterday, I was in the libary. Well, I was looking at some university phamplets and yah, I met evelyn.Somehow, we started talking about the courses that we hoped to take in the university. And...I don't know why, but I guess it sorta left an impression on me. I have never been able to really think about it... because it hardly comes to mind. It seems that the last few years, I have always told friends that I wanted to be a biotechnologist, scientists...etc etc. This , I believe was because of the 'survival comes before passion' .slogan for jobs. And i guess it sorta went to my head and all. yep... so...yesterday, I thought about career options and it's funny but yah... I felt that what i had always wanted all along was to be a peace negoiator at the UN. Somehow or other, I wished to make a difference in the lives of people. I know some of you would think i am crazy but the thing is that although the Un is largely ineffective, I just wish to be able to have that opportunity to make a difference . No matter how small it is, I feel that it's worth it. just to see a policy being passed, a larger effort in peace making and it's all for the good of mankind....it's truly worth it. Hah, but hopes and dreams do get shattered you know. Nus does not offer international studies. So I guess, the only alternative is political science or an overseas university which I sure as hell can't afford. Hah. Or maybe a career change? Do you think I would be great as a clown? hmmm.... . Oops... I forgot about the Lambiel pic...haha.. That's Stephane Lambiel and his cousin . He's cool. as a person, I dunno.... but his ice dances are really beautiful. I particularly love the 2006 World exhibition. That was beautiful. Wish I could iceskate too... but I can't. Parents and the whole thing about ice skates cutting a person who falls on ice or some stuff you see. Wonder what's it all about. haha. I really envy him . He can iceskate and dance. It sounds silly you know. but yah, I love dancing and I am absolutely fascinated with iceskating. But studies come first ,or so they say. Sigh... an hour or two won't hurt will it? I so totally don't get the whole thing against dancing and yah... it's not as if I am going to pursue a career in it.... it's.... just 1 of my passions .. that's all.Imagine being able to feel the wind in your face, the exhilaration as you danced . It's so thrilling, it makes you feel freedom, happiness.... . Just an hour to feel those emotions again , to see myself executing the steps of a dance , to feel the wind in my face as I skate away.....how nice that would be. But alas, it's not very possible. Is it? like all humans, i am bound to society; bound to the social ladder.... survival before passions.
Sigh.....I feel so tired... Have been sleeping late for the past two weeks... reason being, work. work , work, work.....Just Thursday, I had to stay up till 3 to do a crap essay and have the teacher extend it to tuesday. Sigh... The Gods are never fair!!! Sigh.... Just yesterday, I was in the libary. Well, I was looking at some university phamplets and yah, I met evelyn.Somehow, we started talking about the courses that we hoped to take in the university. And...I don't know why, but I guess it sorta left an impression on me. I have never been able to really think about it... because it hardly comes to mind. It seems that the last few years, I have always told friends that I wanted to be a biotechnologist, scientists...etc etc. This , I believe was because of the 'survival comes before passion' .slogan for jobs. And i guess it sorta went to my head and all. yep... so...yesterday, I thought about career options and it's funny but yah... I felt that what i had always wanted all along was to be a peace negoiator at the UN. Somehow or other, I wished to make a difference in the lives of people. I know some of you would think i am crazy but the thing is that although the Un is largely ineffective, I just wish to be able to have that opportunity to make a difference . No matter how small it is, I feel that it's worth it. just to see a policy being passed, a larger effort in peace making and it's all for the good of mankind....it's truly worth it. Hah, but hopes and dreams do get shattered you know. Nus does not offer international studies. So I guess, the only alternative is political science or an overseas university which I sure as hell can't afford. Hah. Or maybe a career change? Do you think I would be great as a clown? hmmm.... . Oops... I forgot about the Lambiel pic...haha.. That's Stephane Lambiel and his cousin . He's cool. as a person, I dunno.... but his ice dances are really beautiful. I particularly love the 2006 World exhibition. That was beautiful. Wish I could iceskate too... but I can't. Parents and the whole thing about ice skates cutting a person who falls on ice or some stuff you see. Wonder what's it all about. haha. I really envy him . He can iceskate and dance. It sounds silly you know. but yah, I love dancing and I am absolutely fascinated with iceskating. But studies come first ,or so they say. Sigh... an hour or two won't hurt will it? I so totally don't get the whole thing against dancing and yah... it's not as if I am going to pursue a career in it.... it's.... just 1 of my passions .. that's all.Imagine being able to feel the wind in your face, the exhilaration as you danced . It's so thrilling, it makes you feel freedom, happiness.... . Just an hour to feel those emotions again , to see myself executing the steps of a dance , to feel the wind in my face as I skate away.....how nice that would be. But alas, it's not very possible. Is it? like all humans, i am bound to society; bound to the social ladder.... survival before passions.