sigh..... I was supposed to start studying this week but still.... I somehow seem to be procastinating. Sigh.... I guess it's because of the pw and stuff ... but still... that's no excuse... Gotta start working.... My goal... at least for now is to get promoted...haha... can't hope for much. yupz... Anyway, nothing much happened today, except that I sorta embarresed myself infront of the history cohort. Ms loo got me to tell the class about the Islamic talk that I attended ... Nothing much.... to talk about since I missed half an hour of the talk and the talk was full of Chimnology.... It was argh... so difficult to understand. So I told the class at least a part of what I caught... yepz... maybe I didn't embaress myself at all... but I hate talking in front of a whole group of people !! It makes me lose mysenses... Can't believe it, after a week on stage acting , I still get stage fright...argh.....Actually, what i thought the talk was that it causes the Islamic countries to be in a dilemma ; between that of Islam and the values of a nation state. The nation state is selfish , thinking of its own national interests, not caring about others while Islam is community based, transcending all physical boundaries. Thus, it is partly also because of this dilemma that causes the rise of terrorist groups. That was all that i caught from that talk. Went for another talk yesterday. This time it was on Al qaeda and yea... basically on terrorism. The speech was quite interesting, just that I felt that he was quite baised and he didn't really answer the topic. His topic was on that of Al qaeda in retreat or on the march? however , he spoke mainly on the subject of the London bombings. I felt he was quite baised because he kept mentioning about the 3 sucide bombers who went to Pakistan. It was like throughout the whole speech , he kept mentioning 'Pakistan' ,'terrorists' and ' Al qaeda' as if he was indirectly accusing Pakistan of training terrorists. This caused the Pakistani ambassador to stand up and defend the integrity of his country during the Q&A session. The speech was a little confusing as when the speaker mentioned that it was a desire for vengence and retaliation that caused the appearance of sucide bombers. but what Vengence? as in Vengence against who? If it's against the west , shouldn't it be against the USSR and not the US. Because it was the Ussr who occupied Afghanistan for a decade and it was the US who trained rebels like Osama to fight against the USSR. Even so, why did the rebels want to fight against the USSR in the 1st place with the help of the Us and why does it seem as if they turned their backs against the US by suddenly declaring 'jihad' on them? So many questions and yet none answered. Sigh..... Anyway, practically slacked in school today and yep just finished off my methodology. It's terrible..... I hate writing reports .. but that's life ... the good and the bad together. lol. anyway... am off to bed.